Grrr

We are still trying.. with no luck.. our last official try took us three months to get pregnant - so this month being the third in our second attempt to get pregnant is very disheartening.

I had a dream/thought on Matilda's birthday about another baby - unsure if it was mine.. it sure felt like it was.. i even knew his name.. i felt terrible about thinking/dreaming about him..

sunday night/monday morning.. i woke up with a startle.. i was dreaming that i had taken a pregnancy test and that it was positive.. i am not really meant to test for a few more days so i rode monday out.. tuesday i couldnt help myself so i tested... no two pink lines :( i know i tested early but i still was hoping that i would see something..

i cant tell if having a baby on the brain is causing these thoughts or if they are premonitions - i have never had such dreams before..

i bought another test this afternoon and will take it on christmas morning that will be three days until george (aunt flow's nephew) is due.. main reason being that i wouldn't want to indulge on the seafood feast and put any potential cashews at risk just in case..

so i guess now we wait.. 2 more sleeps til the next testing...

Getting back on the bandwagon..

We have decided to get back on the bandwagon and try to expand our family again! Most recently we have expanded our family with the addition of two puppies (one of whom is yet to join us) and one who is currently sleeping in his kennel. We also have one forever sleeping baby and two kittens (well they aren't really kittens).

I have a blog where I talk about my feelings for and about my sleeping baby but have decided to start a new blog dedicated to our current endeavour.

So we officially started trying last month - unsuccessfully.

I guess we will try again this month.. and then again after that if we have too..

We want this so bad... we are ready... we are waiting.. we even have a name picked out for the impending bub - Cashew!