a new cycle

and so today begins a new cycle... grrr.....

C25K - Check in

So after my week long haiatus, i started keep three last night, skipping over week two in the program.

So i thought i'd check in.. as i feel remarkably well considering i went about 15 km in an hour.. i didn't run all the way but didn't feel like i was going to die at the end of it either!

i weighed in this morning at 78.5kg

measurements were:

B- 96, W-103.8 and T-116cm

pleased to see the waist and thigh measurements going down... especially considering George is nearly due!

will forge on!

FAIL!!!

pox pox pox...

so i couldn't help myself and i took a test just now.. FAIL!!

that sucks... sucks because its another month in our lives without hope and sucks because by the weekend george should arrive... what about all my phantom symptoms - where they just that? phantom? why is the body so cruel as to give phantom symptoms? so then oh fascinating human body - why to i have a head ache now.. right this minute? grrr i hate you..

*sigh*

im off for a run and will be back for a check in tomorrow...

C25K - Check in

not quiet a check in.. i have been very lazy... reason being the ridiculous heat wave we have been experiencing this past week... today however was cool enough to facilitate another run.. so off i went with the puppies..

i have also signed up for a 2 week program called "drop a dress size" which involves 2 bootcamps a week and 2 sessions of personal training a week.. i will be starting this crazyness on the 1st feb.. im scared.. though im hoping i will actually drop a dress size!

as i said im all about the measurements that than the kilos now!

wish me luck!

I feel so damn incompetent...

so as i said.. i took a test on monday and got a big fat negative...

yesterday - tuesday - hubby asked me when i was going to take a test and i told him i took one on monday and there was nothing to report.. he was soooooo disappointed... and all i could say was sorry.. i feel so terrible... if it wasn't for my poxy bloody, he would have had his baby girl by now...

I really don't know what to think about my phantom symptoms.. i often think to myself... when did my life change and start to revolve around getting pregnant.. its like it just happened without me noticing...

alas.. like every month i am hoping as much as i can that george wont show up this weekend.. unfortunately only time will tell..*sigh*

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so i took a test when i got home from work... one red line - damn it! (sorry)

Phantom Symptoms??

I know I ovulated last Monday.. thus implantation – if it’s happened should have happened by now – I think. I have had some strange symptoms for the last few days..

Friday night – I had a headache.. I haven’t had one since I was last pregnant.. also I was drinking a beer which tasted funny to me but normal to hubby.. then when we went to dinner, something I ate tasted funny to me but again normal to everyone else… this taste thing is not something I’ve experienced before

Saturday – I took a hpt in the morning to make check – knowing it was too early but hoping to see a sign.. anyways a big fat negative…

Sunday – I was really really really tired.. like I couldn’t even hold my head up so I napped for an hour from 4pm to 5pm!

Monday (today) – I have a niggling headache.. but our air conditioner at work is not working and it’s a 40+ day outside… so it could be that.. I also just had what I could only describe as a hot flush..

Of course every time I google symptoms of pregnancy these things keep coming up… im so sick of not seeing the two red lines on the hpt’s that I don’t want to get my hopes up.. so for now they are phantom signs…

I am still deciding if I should take the HPT tonight or not.. according to the instructions I have a 70% chance of seeing something today and 80% if I wait til tomorrow! And of course 93% if I wait til the following day.. question is, can I hold out on testing or would I rather go through the heartache of seeing one red line… hmm…